मेरा आजीवन कारावास / माझी जन्मठेप (स्वातंत्र्यवीर सावरकर - काले पानी का ऐतिहासिक संस्मरण)

soon find him here." Slightly annoyed by it I said, "Any man from India can come here.
For the whole of India is a vast prison-house, as much as Ireland. What wonder then that
my brother should be here?" Mr. Barrie was an Irishman, and he looked crest-fallen.
Then the Superintendent put in, "I do not know anything of it, but am I right when I say
that he is a bit of a coward?" I asked him, just to pump him out, "How do you say so?"
The Superintendent answered, "I say so because he wired to the police as soon as he got
the news from Delhi that it should note that he was at Calcutta. He informed the police
that they should not involve him in it. To which I retorted, "Then I may consider him the
wisest man in Calcutta. Evidently, he had not thrown it, but even if he had thrown the
bomb, this was the cleverest way to mislead the police. He was no coward. He is a brave
man for he knows to attack and yet escape."

Evidently these remarks were dictated by vehemence and passion. The
Superintendent was taken aback and went away without making any answer.

For two or three days after this conversation, I was really restless in mind about
my brother. Repeatedly those verses came to my mind in which I had embodied my
deepest conviction:

"I have not taken this vow blindly; or in the course of nature, just to win
popularity and fame. This ordeal is extremely painful; burns the soul like fire. I know it,
and I have taken it as the Sati takes her vow that she will immolate herself on the funeral
pile of her husband." I brought the verses vividly to my mind, repeated them to myself,
and was prepared for the worst. So was I consoling myself when I learnt the truth, and
was completely relieved in mind.

I may give here another instance of how Mr. Barrie used to tease us. One day he
came and asked us,

"Who is this Har Dayal?"

I answered, "You know him. He is the man to whom the Home Member, Sir
Reginald Craddock, had referred as the leader of the revolutionary movement in America,
in his conversation with me in this jail." I further enquired Of him if he had any special
information to give me about him. Mr. Barrie told me of Har Dayal, as if in confidence,
that he was brought to Bombay on the charge of murder. I was simply stunned by that
news. That one of our great revolutionary leaders should have been so arrested and was to
meet the same fate as I, was too much for me to bear. Mow unhappy my country was,
indeed, that the same destiny that was mine should be his. I recalled my own arrest, my
trial, my hardships, and my transportation to this jail. I sent out secretly warders to
ascertain what truth there was in the news that Mr. Barrie had given me. They could not