मेरा आजीवन कारावास / माझी जन्मठेप (स्वातंत्र्यवीर सावरकर - काले पानी का ऐतिहासिक संस्मरण)

the Officers believed that it was to happen accordingly. We learnt later that something
was on the anvil. This was the eve before that day. We were all of us in a line for our
evening meal. My political friends were sitting beside me. The Jamadar himself was in a
jubilant mood for he was also hoping to be released along with us. The only item that had
remained to be settled was by what train we were to leave from Calcutta for our
respective homes. As we were thus in the very height of our hopes, one Mirza Khan came
running up to me and, almost out of breath for the news, pressed my hand and told me,
"Barrister Babu, you are let off." This man was the worst of his kind among the prison-
warders. The dirty canal through which Mr. Barrie's palaver flowed on to us claimed him
as its very own. There were three of them who were similar channels of his messages to
us. They constituted the trident in the hands of the demi-god of Port Blair. It was this
trident with which he always pierced our hearts in this prison. But today its sharp end had
blunted. The Khan beamed with kindness upon me. These wretched minions are
opportunists all. They are kind or cruel as occasion suits them. Tomorrow, all of us were
to be free, were to leave the prison. What, then, was he to gain by being cruel to me?
Perhaps as a free man I may be of help to him. Knowing me as a man of law, he would
require my services to defend him as the accused in a future case of dacoity or similar
crime. It may happen like that, who knows. So it was discreet now to be on good terms
with me. At least it would cost him nothing to behave thus with me now. So the Khan
pressed my hand and, in anticipation, felicitated me. And he made the news public to all
the rest of them.
Bada Babu released
"But who told you this", I asked him with a smile. He said, "But why need any
one tell me this? Mr. Barrie himself has issued orders to assemble all the Jamadars in his
office tomorrow. For the prisoners have to be arrayed and sent off to their respective
places on the island and to be put on the boat that will take them home." "But how do you
say from that that I am included in that number?" The Khan replied, "I put a definite
question about it to Mr. Barrie and he laughed." Then it was on this slender thread of
hope that he had built up this news. All the same, I must confess that it gladdened my
heart to hear it. I also had my castles in the air. I shall go home; I will meet my brother,
and I will embrace him deeply. All released souls will wake up as from a bad dream and
gather together like humming bees,—these were the musings I indulged in. And with a
wave of joy it filled my whole being. I knew that it "was only a dream and yet it brought
to me peace and happiness. In the direst condition of overwhelming misfortune, what
man is there that will not clutch at such a hope for relief and consolation? It does blunt
the sharp edge of calamity that is ever at our breast.
The happy news made all of them fall into my arms and embrace me. Every one
of them was eager to say, "Now, at least, you will take it as true. Now you are sure of it,"
I shook my head and said, "No", when the most enthusiastic and forward among them,
Ram Hari by name, caught hold of my iron chain, and my breastplate with its marked