मेरा आजीवन कारावास / माझी जन्मठेप (स्वातंत्र्यवीर सावरकर - काले पानी का ऐतिहासिक संस्मरण)

officials at Port Blair now busied themselves in preparing evidence that would throw a
veil over the past, and show that, after all, there was nothing very wrong here and things
should be allowed to continue as they were. They set up machinery for white-washing
and window-dressing the entire administration. And they selected for that purpose
renegades and flatterers, from among us to be tutored to appear before the Commission
and give the evidence they liked. They took particular care to shut out direct complaints
by the prisoners against the officers concerned. On the side of the political prisoners, on
the other hand, we had started work that would enable us to put the whole case before the
Commission in order that nothing that was needed to bring about a radical change in this
institution should escape their attention. We started correspondence and sent messages
throughout the settlement that the evidence to be led before the Commission of
grievances and demands, should be of a straight and uniform character. Each district and
part of the settlement was to prepare its own case and represent it to the Commission. But
all of them seemed to be very keen that I should lead the deputation on behalf of them all.
For they had confidence that I alone could put the whole case before the Commission in
written and oral evidence as none of them could do it.
But I had definite information that the Commission was being sent to the
Andamans with one object in view. And that was to investigate into and review the cases
of its political prisoners and to report on the discharge of as many of them as they thought
fit for that mercy by the evidence placed before them. It was obvious, in these
circumstances, that if I led the deputation and exposed the administration, the
Commission, mainly composed of officials, would be heavily prejudiced against me, and
I would lose my chance of freedom from this jail. Should I take that risk or should I not?
That was the question before me.
On the other hand, if I failed the political prisoners in their hour of need, I would be
rightly charged with ingratitude for the whole-hearted support they had given me in all
the activities that I had started in the prison. They hod faced opposition and passed
through hardships for my sake during the eight years of my close association with them.
Moreover, by my abstention I would be throwing away the opportunity of a life-time to
crown all the activities I had started here with the simple aim of putting an end to the
inhuman cruelty practised as a policy by the administrators of this prison. It was not
only the question of ten thousand and odd present prisoners in that jail and their just
grievances, but of the improvement that would affect all those that might happen to be
sent in this place hereafter. Should I fail them now, I would lose all that I had done in the
past. For this enquiry and this Commission were in themselves the fruit of our
endeavours, sufferings and resistance in this jail. I knew in my heart that none could
render them better service in the present juncture than I. To back out now was to let them
down. I, therefore, decided to lead the deputation whatever be its consequences to me
personally.
It was my principle of action in the Andamans to ever observe the golden mean.
Whatever good I could do in the Andamans or whatever awakening I might bring about