मेरा आजीवन कारावास / माझी जन्मठेप (स्वातंत्र्यवीर सावरकर - काले पानी का ऐतिहासिक संस्मरण)

the Punjab, named Prithvi Singh. For twelve days they lay confined in their prison cell
without a morsel of food. At last, the authorities had to yield and admit their written
statement. The statement embodied all the grievances of the strikers from the demand
that they should be treated like political prisoners in England down to their demand for
soap and water to wash their hair. As their statement was received by the authorities, the
venerable sixty-year old Sikh called off the hunger-strike which was meant to force that
statement upon their attention. But the spirited young Rajput refused to listen to him and
continued the hunger strike individually for two weeks more. It was sheer passion on his
part to do so. After the lapse of two weeks they began administering milk to him through
the nose and by a tube. The young man grew emaciated in body, but his spirit refused to
yield to the craving of the flesh. His temper rose as his body began to sink. He gave up
wearing garments, he took no blanket to protect himself against cold; hungry, stark
naked, in heat and cold, he lay on the cemented floor of his own cell and behind locked
doors. He followed the practice of Nani Gopal and talked with none. Why should he talk
to those who would not mind him? Whatever was to be told had been already embodied
in the petition before them. That was his attitude to them as also his reason for silence.
He expressed himself in these words and never spoke again. The Commissioner came to
ask what he had to say. But not one word would he say to him. For full six months he
continued like this without a break. He lay in his room for full six months, without food,
without clothing, without a word; and his well-built body was reduced to skin and bones.
I tried my hardest to save the life of such an honest, patriotic, promising young man. At
last, I contrived to meet him. I rebuked him. I told him the story of Rana Pratap Singh
who regarded it a valorous act to retreat four or five miles from a battle-field rather than
fight the enemy on the spot and be put to the sword along with his army. I told him about
the battle of Haldighat and quoted similar episodes from his heroic life. One was not
right in giving up his precious life without exacting full price for it. If one resolved to
die, he must die fighting. Patriotic service meant heroism and extorting cent percent for
the sacrifice made, and not the death of a man by hunger and in a lonely cell like a rat. If
one killed himself in the name of his country in this fashion, one was harming and not
helping the cause of his country. The young Rajput seemed to be touched by this appeal
to his conscience. He relaxed, and promised me not to end his life by suicide. And I
felt relieved in mind.
But I could not break this to his friends; and they blamed me for not dissuading
him from that course. I had to put up with this censure silently for I had given my word
to Prithvi Singh not to reveal the promise he had given me. I had asked the doctor to
inform me from time to time about his condition, and especially when it had reached its
breaking point.
Often the warders and other petty officers addressed him roughly that he might
utter a word in retort. It came to the breaking point one day. Bound by a vow he could
not return abuse for abuse. His body was burning with fever and his mind could not bear
the foul words of the warder. In sheer desperation, the young man got up, ran to the wall,
and began beating his head against it. They were alarmed. The Superintendent ordered
that two warders should be on the watch in his room during the night for fear he might
commit suicide.