मेरा आजीवन कारावास / माझी जन्मठेप (स्वातंत्र्यवीर सावरकर - काले पानी का ऐतिहासिक संस्मरण)

Die fighting
Kill one enemy of the country and then expire. Why die like a coward? Your
tribulations must influence the country, however small that influence may be. And if you
don't believe it, and if you conclude that they shall have no repercussions outside, even
then why need you hang yourself? It is dying like a dog. They did not send you to the
gallows. Consider why? Were they smitten with compassion? No; they did not hang you
because they thought it impolitic to do so. Now, if you hang yourself, you will be only
playing into their hands. You will add to the failures and ruin of your party. Why, then,
quit the world thus? It will be a distinct disservice to the cause, which, you yearn,
should prosper You are a soldier in this war of freedom. Then die like a hero. Do not
commit suicide, but kill and die in the fight." Reason, when it argued with desire in this
fashion, convinced and won me over to her side. I had become desperate. That mood of
desperation was conquered, and I recovered my poise once again.
If I resolve to die, I die only thus
Not only did I make up my mind to die bravely, but I persuaded all my friends
and disciples in that pall that it was their duty, in virtue of the pledge they had taken, to
die like heroes. I thus saved many a lonely and wretched human being in that place from
the verge of suicide.
While working at the oil-mill and with all the fatigue that the work involved for
body and mind, I had one compensation in it and that was the chance I got there to talk to
my political friends These came to me either by connivance of their jamadars and
warders, or by eluding their watch They kept on talking to me as long as they could
safely do so. Most of that conversation took place after five in the evening whale others
were busy arranging for our dinner, and during the hurry and bustle of that business. We
gathered together then on the resting place of the reservoir in front of us. One of us kept
the watch and the rest engaged themselves in talk. We had free and candid exchange of
opinion on the question which had all along occupied our minds and for which we had
sacrificed our lives. The talk went on like a fresh breeze through our souls and thoroughly
revived us The fire that had smouldered blazed once more. Insults and humiliations were
welcomed as ants of grace What we had suffered paled into insignificance, and what was
to come we resolved to face as "the stern daughter of the voice of God", would dictate it
to us. These moments of freedom
from the harrowing teeth of the Kolu
were, indeed, blessings from that Goddess. Most of the political prisoners of my time
were not more than twenty- five years old. I found their education defective and